#Hikayat 4- Healing

Hati itu,

pernah terluka.

pernah disayang,

pernah dicinta.

pernah dipunya.

sekeping hati itu juga,

sukar untuk percaya.

kerana hati itu,

pernah ditoreh, ditikam. dilumat lumatkan oleh insan yang bernama

kamu.

'Dear awak,

Sabar.

you're healing.'

#JIWA 1

Pabila kutatap potret wajahmu
hati meronta ingin berjumpa
Pabila bertemu denganmu
mulut terkunci seribu bahasa
Telinga menjadi pekak mendengar keburukanmu
mata menjadi buta dengan segala kebaikanmu
alangkah indahnya
Jikalau kau dilahirkan untukku
akanku laungkan pada dunia
kau adalah milikku
tapi,
apakan daya
kau bukan milikku
andainya dunia ini milikku
akanku ubah segalanya
akanku putarkan masa
untuk bersamamu
walaupun hanya sedetik cuma ~


-ice-

#Percaya

All I need is my bestfrend.
Not a boyfriend. Nor a stranger.
The one that I can talk to.
About everything.
Just because of silly mistake back then,
when the r'ship of frend get involved with feeling, it's ruin everything.
and that is the biggest mistake I have ever made.
I didn't realized, frend can't be more than that.
Kawan tetap kawan.
You with your sweet talk, a little care, make me overwhelming.
You ask me to date more than twice.
You called me sindarella.
You buy me things.
You text me everyday.
 But, it is just you.
Who really love to play around.
Who treated all girl like how you treat me.
Even though they told me that you always mention my name in front of them,
we ARE JUST FRIEND.
It's just i felt it like a crush, but the truth is,
it's not.
I love you, yes i really do.
That is why, after 4 years we are together as a friend.
I accept your proposal. As your girlfriend of course.
But, after that, i felt loss.
Rasa hilang sangat.
You asked me why.
and i burst with tears.
Only for 4 days.
Cukup sekejap untuk masa 4 tahun yang kita kenal.
I realized I didn't trust you enough to love you as what-ever-r'ship-people-called.
I keep thinking, how can you date me and in the very same time, you date another girl.
You ask me to stay, but you happy with some other girls.
Sampai saya tertanya tanya,
" Who am I to you? Saya bukan barang simpanan awak. Saya bukan patung."
Awak pegang hati saya, dan tiba tiba awak lepaskan pergi.
Tapi, tu bukan salah awak.
Saya sepatutnya dah kenal awak.
You never serious in any matters.
and the jealousy yang muncul bila awak ada dia, dia dan dia. Sesiapa saja tu.
Tu cuma sebab you used to be with me.
dengar cerita saya, teman saya nangis.
and it is definitely not love :)

Finally, masa dah lama berlalu pergi.
sekarang dah 7 tahun kita kenal.
i really miss my old buddy. HAHA.
My dearest batman.
i hope he already find his ms. right and be happy.
I do contact him sometimes. to catching up about ourlife.
But the fact we are not-so-close-after-that-case buat saya jadi awkward.
Nak nak bila tiba-tiba awak panggil saya sinderella balik macam bukak kisah lama.
HAHA.
saya ingat awak dah berubah.
Tolong jangan mainkan perasaan orang lain lagi :)

Saya taknak diorang rasa apa yang saya rasa.
kalau diorang tu jenis susah nak terima sesiapa.


- coretan sukasuki based on someone's story-
p/s : how can you love someone that you didn't trust?

Dear you

Falling in love is a nice feeling. It is entirely an emotional matter and a majority of the love arises almost spontaneously. "Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you was beyond my control". Falling on love can occur at any time, in any place, under any circumstances. Albert Einstein humorously says, "Gravitation cannot be responsible for falling in love". But the most important part is you have to fall in love with the same person again and again. Falling in love is like falling in water. We can fall in it. We can drown in it but we can't live without it. Falling in love is the necessity that can never be avoided and it is not necessary to avoid it. But instead of falling in love with more than one person many times, fall in love with the same person many times.

I'm that girl

who fall too fast, crash too hard, forgive too easily, and care too much.

" It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return. But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel."

Dear heart, please stop falling in love.

No tittle

To love and to be loved by someone

is

two

different thing ;)

maaf

Aku suka bila orang sebut perkataan maaf daripada 'sorry'

dan aku memang senang maafkan orang.

pftt